I never thought before that Peace of Mind is the only tool needed to access other positive qualities and to be aware of talents that we don't even know we possessed.
In my experience, aside from happiness, motivation and other good qualities that go along with it,I had this urge from nowhere to make a daring move to write a book, in times when it was impossible for me to write one. The details of this is included in my book.
At the moment, I am waiting for an opportunity for its publication. I keep informing people about this book whenever I can. Fortunately, my projects (for I have several projects at this time), have opened up communication with my friends that had been cut off, which I did intentionally for I really have nothing worth telling them anyway. Now, I have things to tell them already, so I sent them emails like the one below, which is a response actually, telling about my activities:
" Kuya Pascal, I have not recieved any Email from Eric yet but, anyway, I am already happy that he, at least, knows what I am doing now.
My book is partly biographical. In the first part, I talked about my childhood days, my subsequent travels for my college education, my failures, my life as a tramp on the streets of Manila, Verlanie Foundation, people I met that had great impact in my life, my climb to the summit of Mt. Banahaw (Eric knows about this one, this is a very interesting story, at least for me) and my discovery of a technique that changed my behavior entirely.
The second part details the technique I am personally using to bring myself in wonderful state of pure peace of mind.
This is really a book on how to be successful. The first few titles that I came up with carry terms like success, riches, abundance, etc. But then, I discarded them, because of my present status -- how can I talk on those subjects and let people believe me when, in fact, at the moment I am still struggling financially. This is also the very reason why I am pushing myself to be known to the public and have my own name.
Nevertheless, I seemed to settle on the title "from Darkness to the Light," which I think is an appropriate description of my life.
My work is a 300 plus pages book. I have already done the designing of the cover and page layout, which was of course daunting at first.
Equally exciting is the story behind the writing of the book, which I could only term [describe] as a miracle. I really believe that my work is bound to succeed based on signs I saw during its making.
I am thinking of publishing a blog. If it's already worth browsing, I will in form you.
As I am rereading this email that I am writing to you I came to like the message it contents [contained], so I am thinking of putting a portion of this email to my blog soon. Thanks for reading. ANSELMO"
In my present financial condition, it is quite astonishing that I feel enthusiastic to push through my projects when, in fact, I have virtually nothing to support them.
Hoping to solve this, I went to private and government offices to solicit support. Even if I don't get positive response at the moment, it is already a good training ground for self expression. And I am so determined that my voice will be heard in the near future. Below is a letter I sent to televesion stations inviting them to my place hoping for a possible coverage of my Art Exhibit.
" I am 42 years old. Presently, I have an Art Exhibit at home, which is housed in a museum-like environment. I have paintings; rare objects; old books; plant arrangement, a Japanese inspired creation; poems, my own compositions; and, etc.
What is surprising with this work is the fact that I am not an Artist. I have not painted a thing before through inspiration. I came up with the idea of painting because of the book I wrote. I was hoping then, for I am extremely poor, that I could earn money and also make my book project known to others by setting up an Art Exhibit -- hoping that I would meet someone who is willing to help me publish my work.
Unintentionally, the results of my painting left me dumbfounded -- each painting I came up with were stunningly awesome to my eyes. The paintings seemed to be telling me something -- very meaningful. I called my paintings "Translating Vague Images," because, mostly, I don't have to think what I have to paint -- I just have to wait for an image to appear voluntarily on the canvas and that's where I get my inspiration. If I were born an Artist, perhaps I wouldn't feel the degree of enthusiasm to let others see what I had done, like what I am experiencing now with my paintings. And, because I am not an Artist, perhaps there is really something about these paintings that need to be appreciated.
Majority of my paintings were done on crude materials like wooden board (salvaged from the trash), folder, and carton. Also, I make use of some left-over of latex paints that I fished out from the garbage dump. Other paintings were done in colored pencils, drawn on either carton or folder. And, lastly, I have computer paintings created using Microsoft Paint software, of which I attached the caption "Miracle Happens Everyday."
I surrounded my environment with plants and greenery, which add pleasing atmosphere and mystery to the place. I used various languages for my exhibit: English, French, Japanese, Pilipino, and Cebuano.
I called my Art Exhibit "Facing my NIghtmare, the Exhibit," with the theme: "From Nothing to Something." I really believe that this Art Exhibit will interest a lot of people if given a good exposure to the public. Especially that once, I studied in the universities through a scholarship program, believing I would be in the brighter side of life. No wonder, when I found myself hurled to live on the streets of Manila for quite a long time, I wanted to die. Next, to DSWD (RAC, "Reception And Action Center"), then, to an Orphanage, until I discovered something that changes my view, of myself and the world, and my reaction to negative environmental stimulus. My life's story has been woven in my Art, and, will not only entertain, but offers inspiration to all, for it depicts my unquenchable thirst for knowledge.
Furthermore, given financial support, I am sure I can do better than what I had just accomplished. Because of dire circumstances at the moment, I need help to make my work known to the public.
Aside from this Art Exhibit, I am already working on the feasibility of a Radio Program and Motivational Lectures.
Please, don't have in mind that my work is just a plain rubbish. Please...have someone visit and see my work before deciding to reject my endeavor as a piece of nonsense. Sincerely yours, Mr. Anselmo Malugao"
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