Life’s Lessons

For those people who have not experienced a condition where you just have to rely on God’s provision to survive in our daily needs and not much on ones ability to secure one, might thought that it is a scary situation, and even have doubts that there will be God’s help along the way. I have been through many times in this kind of situation, but it’s just a few months ago that I came to see the presence of God’s grace bestowed on me and with other people, even though it’s always there.  Most of us can easily ignore such occurrences as a stroke of luck, and not by any form of guidance. When we are talking of chance, it suggests for a lesser possibility of that event happening again. Through my almost seven years of being a tramp before, situations just like that kept on repeating itself many, many times. Even though some of these occurrences at that time I didn’t recognize as an aid from God, but they were still there.

By the time I had money already, when I went to the province, I was thankful of course, although the strength or magnitude is not as strong compared to those times I had really no money in my wallet to buy something. Like at this moment of writing, I should have said, I don’t have a single centavo, then suddenly, I spotted in the corner of my room that I have still 50 pesos, oh! It made me laugh.

I have a story, this morning I ate just a small amount of rice from yesterday. That rice should have been thrown to the garbage if I hadn’t arrived in time. I was just asking soup from a restaurant to go with my rice that I got also from other restaurants, as I was asking, this guy tending that sidewalk restaurant was acually about to throw some food that was inside a plastic bag, seeing me, he gave it to me instead.

Every time people will give me something to eat during that moment that I need food, it is in that moment that I can feel the presence of God  and witness the kindness of people towards other human being.

I am not regretting that I am in this moment of want again, it’s only through this that I have to look at things once more in utmost humbleness and complete reliance to God, and not with the money out there somewhere. At this moment, I live from day to day, without knowledge at all where to get that food for me.

What makes me excited, though, at this time because I have gadgets that I can use to tell my story and document it. I really don’t have any idea why I am doing this, it’s just a kind of impulse that I have to do this because I like it. But I believe there must be some reason for this behavior.

Having problems isn’t bad at all, that is, if the situation helps you to become a better person. Like me, at this moment, I feel I am closer to God because I don’t have money anymore, who else can I asked to, it’s only Him who listens all the time, I am always thankful many many times everyday, which I have not done for some months now since the arrival of that money in my life.  Right now I have still a room, not so nice but a better one than I used to rent before. I don’t know yet if I will continue living in this place or I will lose it and live on the streets again, I just don’t know. If that will happen, too difficult for me, since I have things. I will surely lose them. I only hope things  will be under control soon.

But whatever will happen, what is important, I am happy that I am closer and trusting God once again that He will provide me the things I need.

Late in the afternoon yesterday, Jan. 24, 2012, I went to the Munoz market and got some food stuffs, aside from a dish of pancit and macaroni with lots of soap given by a super kind woman, I got plenty of bananas (photo above) though over ripe, but still eatable, thrown already inside a garbage basket. Well this morning, I’ve got bananas to eat. Thanks God really.

One advantage also in my condition now is that it opens an environment to sharpen my writing skills, and thinking ability, the gathering of thoughts. Everyday, there are plenty of things to write about as I roam the streets late in the afternoon to feed myself after I finished my usual session on the Internet at the Malls. I am planning of talking to the people on the streets,  a sort of informal talk if possible, I will just see how to go for it. But it’s likely to take place, I had done that one before. Only at that time I had a huge placard at my back announcing my book, so much so that people where so curious about me.

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