Not anymore the Christmas I know well.

This post was originally uploaded on Jan. 2010, on my other blog.

Christmas always brings joy to the heart, not solely on the idea of gifts to receive, friends to meet, and a reunion to look up to, but, by just the way the cold wind blows, is already enough to send some excitement and hope for a better life ahead. How surprising that this Christmas season, here in the Philippines, is devoid of such a refreshing atmosphere. Clearly, it is one of the effects of climate change. Though the night is still cold, the feel of Christmas, however, is gone that without the songs and people talking about it, you could never know it is already Christmas time.

With or without that usual Christmas atmosphere, this year 2010 should be a challenge for us to better our lives.

There are moments to Relax– just do nothing

Below, me pretending to be asleep at SM North. I took this photo by myself.

 

I am wondering if you have experienced moments in your life where you just don’t have the initiative to do anything? Well, if it happens to you, do you think it’s beneficial or destructive?  I have experienced such moments many times, but has just recently been attentive to such conditions. Right now, I have such experience for some time now and that’s the lost of my desire to find a job or work that will, logically, solve my problem at this time. This, I can’t really explain. It seemed that I am just waiting for a miracle to happen. I am really helpless. I am in a situation where there’s the necessity to find money, but here I am doing research, instead of looking for money. When I am in this situation, I feel that I am not in control of myself, since I just can't move to take action about it.

 Weighing the matter over, one can easily give an opinion that I am heading towards destruction. But in my heart, I still believe that I will be fine. So, let us see what will happen next. Will my strange and illogical action at the moment will destroy me, or is it just a way so I can strengthen my trust in God for His providence? But as long as we have peace of mind, we will be alright. 

I am writing this blog here at Trinoma.

TRINOMA (Photo above)

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Life’s Lessons

For those people who have not experienced a condition where you just have to rely on God’s provision to survive in our daily needs and not much on ones ability to secure one, might thought that it is a scary situation, and even have doubts that there will be God’s help along the way. I have been through many times in this kind of situation, but it’s just a few months ago that I came to see the presence of God’s grace bestowed on me and with other people, even though it’s always there.  Most of us can easily ignore such occurrences as a stroke of luck, and not by any form of guidance. When we are talking of chance, it suggests for a lesser possibility of that event happening again. Through my almost seven years of being a tramp before, situations just like that kept on repeating itself many, many times. Even though some of these occurrences at that time I didn’t recognize as an aid from God, but they were still there.

By the time I had money already, when I went to the province, I was thankful of course, although the strength or magnitude is not as strong compared to those times I had really no money in my wallet to buy something. Like at this moment of writing, I should have said, I don’t have a single centavo, then suddenly, I spotted in the corner of my room that I have still 50 pesos, oh! It made me laugh.

I have a story, this morning I ate just a small amount of rice from yesterday. That rice should have been thrown to the garbage if I hadn’t arrived in time. I was just asking soup from a restaurant to go with my rice that I got also from other restaurants, as I was asking, this guy tending that sidewalk restaurant was acually about to throw some food that was inside a plastic bag, seeing me, he gave it to me instead.

Every time people will give me something to eat during that moment that I need food, it is in that moment that I can feel the presence of God  and witness the kindness of people towards other human being.

I am not regretting that I am in this moment of want again, it’s only through this that I have to look at things once more in utmost humbleness and complete reliance to God, and not with the money out there somewhere. At this moment, I live from day to day, without knowledge at all where to get that food for me.

What makes me excited, though, at this time because I have gadgets that I can use to tell my story and document it. I really don’t have any idea why I am doing this, it’s just a kind of impulse that I have to do this because I like it. But I believe there must be some reason for this behavior.

Having problems isn’t bad at all, that is, if the situation helps you to become a better person. Like me, at this moment, I feel I am closer to God because I don’t have money anymore, who else can I asked to, it’s only Him who listens all the time, I am always thankful many many times everyday, which I have not done for some months now since the arrival of that money in my life.  Right now I have still a room, not so nice but a better one than I used to rent before. I don’t know yet if I will continue living in this place or I will lose it and live on the streets again, I just don’t know. If that will happen, too difficult for me, since I have things. I will surely lose them. I only hope things  will be under control soon.

But whatever will happen, what is important, I am happy that I am closer and trusting God once again that He will provide me the things I need.

Late in the afternoon yesterday, Jan. 24, 2012, I went to the Munoz market and got some food stuffs, aside from a dish of pancit and macaroni with lots of soap given by a super kind woman, I got plenty of bananas (photo above) though over ripe, but still eatable, thrown already inside a garbage basket. Well this morning, I’ve got bananas to eat. Thanks God really.

One advantage also in my condition now is that it opens an environment to sharpen my writing skills, and thinking ability, the gathering of thoughts. Everyday, there are plenty of things to write about as I roam the streets late in the afternoon to feed myself after I finished my usual session on the Internet at the Malls. I am planning of talking to the people on the streets,  a sort of informal talk if possible, I will just see how to go for it. But it’s likely to take place, I had done that one before. Only at that time I had a huge placard at my back announcing my book, so much so that people where so curious about me.

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The Tail– dive to unknown waters

  I am not only a writer and lecturer, but I can paint also. It got started when I have that experience of extreme peace of mind. Things have changed dramatically, now I am into things that I could only dream before, for the reason that I have no guts to do it.  At the moment, I am just waiting for the right time. 

There are times that I can’t just act because I just don’t have the energy to do something. But this is, in fact, a blessing since I can relax in the process. To have plenty  of time to think is wonderful. As long as I am not disturbed with the events, it’s fine.

The above painting is one of my spontaneous paintings. This is not a realistic one. This one undergoes a lot changes before it turned out like this. The process is frustrating to others since it takes time sometimes before I can come up with a meaningful image.

In this blog, I am using Windows Live Writer. It is so easy sending a blog to my various blogging account. Like this one, I send this same blog to my other blog accounts. I am so excited!

What I am doing is just write, write, and write, without much thought of the topic am writing about. A nice experience really. I think this is what writers have doing long time ago.

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I am feeling Good

Despite problems I am facing now, I am still enjoying life. I hope this one will be over very soon. I want to wake up one day doing good already at  lectures. I know, if one of my projects will prosper, other projects also, will go hand in hand with that success.

Today, I am here at SM North, blogging. It’s ready wonderful to have my own computer.  I can easily share what ever thoughts  I have. In this blog I am using Windows Live Writer, very useful, since I can send the same blog  quickly to my other blog accounts by just changing the destination. It’s great really.

Today, I don’t have money . I want to just fast, but when the pangs of hunger strikes, I just relent myself for a little food by asking in the restaurants. Nowadays, I can easily get food, people are giving. Thanks God. But what I really asking God about is that He will give me wisdom to have a good decision. But, anyway, I just have to depend on Him. Now, before eating, I trained myself to pray, my friend taught me about this one. And I am thankful of him. And also prayer. That’s the best thing to do.

I am pretty optimistic, money will arrive soon.

 

Trust In God -- don't be troubled

Trust In God, a photo by anselmo B. malugao on Flickr.

Yesterday I was at National Bookstore flipping some of the books, then I saw this one. The words touched my heart. Why? It's because I am one, at this time, of those people who just don't know what's the best thing to do in my financial crisis at this time.

The qoutation above has reminded me that everyhting is under control. It is a fact that we should always bear in our minds.

I am building a Shop

Hello, good day! I am now trying all my resources.
And perhaps soon I really have to sing REALLY, oh! It's so scary. Anyway, for the moment just visit my" Peace of MInd -- the Shop." And see my drawings that for a long time I want to show to the Public. It is in the album "Heavenly Communication?". I have also posted advertisement at OLX.com, "Techniques to peace of MIND".